I’m not very good at this, but I’m going to try so bear with me….
Henry came ‘home’ to my mom’s on Friday and we all – Henry, me, the kids – went outside for a few minutes. We swung on the tire swing and jumped on the trampoline… all five of us. I had fun. Real fun. The kind where my mind and heart weren’t elsewhere… not on projects, not on having to clean up from dinner or give baths or administer meds or anything. It was right where I was. On the trampoline with my kids and husband.
I haven’t been there for a long time.
You know, in the moment. And that’s not even what I mean. What I am trying to say is most of the time there is a heaviness I’m not aware of. It’s become part of me. The heaviness of responsibility. I’m not sure when I got it. Before Ryan… before Ainsley and Natalie. Maybe when I got married. I can’t remember. But for a moment. A few really. My heart was light. My head free.
(c) 2016 Leighann Marquiss
Comments (6)
Love those moments…but yes they are too few and far between…it comes from being an mature responsible adult, try to have more of those moments, hide and seek works really well too.
yeah, i can totally relate. it’s hard to relax now…glad you got to enjoy a few moments together…
amy
So glad you had that care-free time with Henry and the kids Leighann! We all need times like that. I love seeing Ryan on the swing!…With a careful daddy close behind!
Luv ya,
Linda
Heaviness…I know all too well. I’m adjusting to being a stay at home mom and some days I think its really not for me. i love love love my kids but ….sigh
Grab those moments tight and hold on! I think the more of those we have the more we have. You know?
I’m glad you had that moment. I hope you have more of those more often. I love you!!! You are so strong and I really look up to you more and more as time goes by.