I wish I had the energy tonight to come up with some witty post that would keep you laughing and coming back for more, but to be honest I’ve had one heck of a week. Ryan is…well…Ryan and he is refusing his bottle because his mucus membranes are irritated and he can’t breathe through his nose. It’s becoming quite frustrating. I feel like he is digressing.
Monday, Henry had his emergency appendectomy which tied me up for two days fighting for him to have the best care possible. I learned our local hospital sucks if you are there for anything other than having a baby. Henry was rarely visited by his stressed out nurses and the doctor did no follow up visit at all until we called to complain. Additionally they wanted to discharge Henry at 11:30 p.m. because the doctor felt he only needed 23 hours of observation. Uh-em, I know I already mentioned this, but there was no observation on the part of the doctor….he simply checked in with the nurses never speaking to us or asking if we might have any questions.
To make matters worse, as the nurse is trying to push us out the door, Henry’s temperature was on the rise and he was writhing in pain. Let’s just say Mama Bear appeared and Papa Bear was able to spend another night being observed.
We are so spoiled by Children’s and their wonderful communication style. We are used to doctors making rounds and telling you the plan for the day and what to expect and giving you a chance to ask questions about your care. So it was complete culture shock for us on Tuesday and Wednesday.
I brought Henry home Wednesday around 1 p.m. and checked my email only to find out my uncle passed away on Tuesday evening. This is when I lost it. Not outwardly, but on the inside. I’m only one person and it was overwhelming to leave one emotional roller coaster and walk into another.
I immediately thought of Job (the one that has a book of the Bible named after him) and all his loss. I wonder if it is harder to lose everything in a day instead of having it spread out over a year. I vote for losing it in a day. At least then you don’t think you actually might be getting back on top just to be knocked down once again.
I allowed myself a pity party for about an hour. It’s all I had time for. I seriously considered turning off my emotions so I wouldn’t have to feel. It didn’t work. I’m still feeling for those who are concerned. But, I’m feeling better than yesterday. I’ve processed. I’m just not in the mood for being funny. Give me the weekend, please. I’ll be back next week with all my sarcasm and wit, unless of course, fire consumes my cattle and sheep. Then I may just sit in the middle of the floor in sackcloth and ashes and cry.
(c) 2016 Leighann Marquiss
Comments (17)
Pity parties are okay once in awhile as long as you pick yourself back up and keep on moving….don’t cause a traffic jam and rain on everyone else parade. (friends, kids, hubby) LOL
Sorry to hear a….
You have been on a roller-coaster.
hang in there.
PS: Don’t hear from you much anymore. Stop by and say hi.
OMG Leighann, we want you to be YOU…all of it, good and bad. You are a wonderful momma bear and we love knowing about what is going on so that we can pray for you and lift your burdens before the Lord. Seriously… be yourself and we will all still come back. You are loved! Praying for you
Mama Bear, Papa Bear, and the 3 little bears are all in our prayers. Morning will come, I promise!
Love, Aunt Amelia
I will be praying for you. You are strong, but you sometimes need to call on the Lord for added strength.
Leighann, I too have those pity parties…and I think we are very much entitled to them now and then! We always bounce back to reality. I’m sorry to hear you have had such a bad week! And I totally get the whole observation thing…I went through it here with Polly too…crazy what us mama bears have to put up with! I hope you have some re-coop time this weekend. I’ll be praying for you and the fam…and I’ll put in a special little part praying for your cattle and sheep! LOL!!! Love ya, Richelle
OH Leighann, pity party truly allowed. You have had more emotional roller coaster rides in one year than a lot of people have in a lifetime, with more to come, so YES you are allowed your time to feel a little sorry for yourself and let Mamma bear to do her thing, that is what God made you who you are to protect those you love the most. Praying for you all. When you are a little less stressed the girls and I want to come by and visit. I still promised Natalie we would.
love ya. sorry everything is happening at once. you have every right to lose it once in a while. you have been incredibly strong for a long time. sometimes losing it gives your emotions time to gear up for the next stretch. so make it thru this weekend, then take some time to lose it. then me, you and amy will drown away our sorrows and stress in food and laughter and a little chasin’ after kiddos. love ya and praying for you.
oh…you’ve still got it…your humor and wit. but you are also allowed to LOSE it…we need to see that too – to make sure we’re all normal and that you’re ok. praying for you guys!!!
I think your title said it all… you’re just being realistic about how you feel! And I don’t blame you a bit!!!! We all need to let ourselves feel down at times…as long as we don’t stay there I guess is what counts. 🙂 My thoughts and prayers are with you. And I sincerely hope that your livestock remains safe this weekend! lol
Oh go ahead and sit in the middle of the floor and cry if you want to! I think you’ve earned it!!! Thanks for keeping it real!
My favorite verse is Zeph. 3:17
“The Lord your God is WITH YOU!!!! He is mighty to save.He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.”
Just remember that the God of this universe loves you so much that he rejoices over you with singing. Kind-of an amazing mental picture isn’t it?
Praying for you guys!!
I am with you Leighann… life seems stragely similar right now. I can’t blog, I am trying ot find the words. Praying for you guys still.
I have only commented one other time because I don’t know you, and sometimes I just don’t know what to say. What I can say is that I follow your blog and you have been a great encouragement to me. You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you. God bless.
Becky Laywell
awwww. Hang in there! Hold on to God’s promise never will I leave you..
so sorry you’re having a rough week. you’re in our prayers. give out a shout if you want me to watch the girls or something next week.
Praying for you, Johanna and the rest of your family during time of lose.
AS I’ve read in other post, it’s ok to have that pity party. We all need it every now and then.
Praying for the family today.
~Paula
you’re only human, so you are entitled to pity parties. i stop by here just b/c you and your family encourage me to keep going when i feel like i’ve had enough. i hope your readers can do the same for you. He will only give you what you can handle.
Just found your blog, you are a great writer (with much to write about no doubt)!
I’m sorry about your uncle, praying for you and your family and your little one!