This is the post I was going to do on Friday, but was too tired:
I’m tired. Mentally and Physically. I keep thinking life will slow down, but it doesn’t. And with school and fall activities starting up, it’s going to be awhile… I think I will just stop thinking life will slow down. Then perhaps I will lower my expectations and start doing the things I keep putting off because I think I don’t have time. Like getting together with friends. And maybe I’ll stop doing things that make me too busy, like sweeping the floor every night.
Or maybe I’ll keep sweeping because Ryan choked on eyeball on Friday. One of those little button eyes that you glue on puppets and crafts with the little black circle that floats around in the little plastic bubble. (You know what I mean? Because I feel like I’m not being clear enough. Moving along….). I was cooking dinner and heard Ryan coughing. He coughs all the time from reflux, but he wasn’t eating so I looked down at him and saw he was chewing and coughing interchangeably. “That’s funny.” I thought. And the veteran mom in me thought, “He has something in his mouth that he’s choking on.” Very calmly – and really I mean without any anxiety – I walked over to him, tried to pry his mouth open which proved impossible so I turned him upside down, gripped his chin in one hand, used my legs to cushion his body (putting his heart in between my legs so as not to crush it), and supported his body with the other hand. I shook my legs a bit to dislodge whatever he might have in his mouth.
I think I was calm because I wasn’t really sure he had anything in there. But after a split second some drool came falling out and then that little button eye. What do you know… another milestone, Ryan is now putting small objects in his mouth. GOOD BOY! I mean, BAD BOY! But great dexterity!
The ensuing conversation with the girls made me giggle. I briefly went over how we had to be careful about what we leave out because Ryan is now eating small items. “I didn’t leave it there, mommy.” was Natalie’s reply. “That’s not…. humpf. I mean, that’s my eyeball!” said Ainsley. “Say you’re sorry, Ainsley.” said Natalie. “Sorry.” Ainsley obeyed.
On the first day of school Natalie informed me Sam was not her boyfriend. She has loved him since the first day of kindergarten so this came as news to me. “Yes he is.” said Ainsley. “No he’s not. He’s not my boyfriend.” argued Natalie.
“That’s okay, honey.” I said. “He doesn’t have to be your boyfriend. But he can be your friend. You still like him as a friend, right?”
“Yeah.” she said.
“Besides” I continued. “You’re too young for a boyfriend anyway. You don’t need boyfriends right now. Just be friends with everyone.”
“Yeah, I’m too young for a boyfriend.” she said. “I’m not going to have one until college.”
“That sounds like a good idea!” I said, barely able to contain my glee.
I keep trying to tell her never means you haven’t done something even one time…. she keeps telling me she knows the meaning. But um, we do watch movies, and I do give them ice cream, and we have listened to the same song (her current favorite) at least twenty times in the last three days!
Okay, that’s all I’ve got. I told you I’m tired. I’ll try to do better next time.
Comments (5)
awe sweet Leighann! I love your posts, even if you’re tired it’s okay to take a step back and breathe. We all understand that life gets busy. I’m very proud of you the way you handled yourself calmly when Ryan was choking on the eyeball!
Matthew 11:28 (New International Version) 28″Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
You are amazing in everything you do! You deserve to take the time to enjoy the people and not so much things we have to get done on our list. Always praying for you! 🙂 Love you!
Love ya and wish I could relieve some of your busyness. Instead I will come visit you.
Sorry Ryan choked but really proud of him for putting something in his mouth. yay Ryan!!
I am so glad that God gave you grace to deal with Ryan’s choking episode calmly. It is so hard when they are at the age to put everything in their mouths. One time one of my grand kids put a marble in his mouth and I quickly turned him upside down too and fished the marble out with my finger…but it was so scary!
I prayed for you this morning. I hope you can regain your strength and not be so tired. I’m sure it is hard to have so much going on all of the time…and to have to constantly care for Ryan’s special needs…so I will continue to pray for you Leighann.
I am so proud of you and how you are an overcomer…by the grace of God.
Keep trusting in Him!
Love, Linda @ Truthful Tidbits
The mental image of your rastling with Ryan to get the eye out of his mouth is greatly amusing.
And kudos to you for making sure not to crush his heart even though you were reacting on instinct!
Don’t apologize! I think this post is pretty great and funny 😀